Saturday, 5 April 2014


Salam lovelies! 

Alhamdulillah this morning I landed safely here in Paris with my mum and a close friend. We decided to take a little break from the kitchen to spend some time to indulge in the never ending desserts here. But it gets better, because my sister ended up joining us her. When in Paris, the more the merrier! :) 

We're definitely on to a good start because all the locals have been so friendly (much different to what I recall when I was here in high school). In fact so friendly, one of the tenants in this apartment startled me when he stepped out of the door and decided to pose with me, hahaa. Why not?

Photos by Kim L. and Yours Truly

Friday, 28 March 2014

Meaningful Prayer

Have you ever had one of those solat where after you give salam, you were like, 'Hold on, what did I just say?' Well, I've been having those lately. One of the things I hate the most when times get really busy for me is how crappy my solat can get. Mind wondering everywhere. Have I replied her email? This cake is due for delivery in a few hours, quick! Yummy roast chicken for lunch. Okay, the last one was something I could've avoided had I eaten first. My point is, I'm finding it harder and harder to keep my kusyuk (especially on busy days), and it's probably because I don't really know 
what I'm reciting.

When I started taking the prayer seriously, I knew I had to make time to understand what it is I'm saying during this one on one time with Allah. But I never really got around to that, and sometimes I feel really embarrassed because I'm pretty sure I sound like one of those people who go for an interview and they talk about something which they know nothing about. Big fancy words are coming out of their mouth, but the interviewer knows that person has no idea what he's talking about. 
I'm that loser interviewee. 

I'm pretty sure if I knew and really felt a connection with what it was I say during my solat, even if I were busy, I would still have a decent amount of kusyuk going on, instead of rushing through my sujud and doing it like it's just a routine. I hate that I'm not feeling it lately and I'm sure Allah knows it too. So when this God sent project called Meaningful Prayer popped up, I knew I'd be stupid not to make time for it. Basically it's an online course to help you and I, really understand every little word we say during our solat from the time we say Allahuakbar to the time we give our salaams. My sister shared this gem with me last week, and I just have to share it with you guys too. Sheikh Abdul Nasir Jagda has only started uploading the introduction, so let's do this together!

Let's ask Allah swt to make us among those who are in real conversation with Him, feel the sweetness of the solat, and are washed clean of our sins with each solat.

"Salah is about reflection and pondering. It is about comprehending and understand. It is about feeling what you are saying and then delving into it and being absorbed by the experience of the salah. This can only be done wen you truly appreciate and understand what you are saying in the salah."


Dress (Safar Pelisse) Love To Dress / Pants Sass & Bide / Heels Zara

Ironically smiling is something I haven't been doing much these past few days. This past week has been a test for me and I'm sure for so many as well. It has been one sad news after another. Many lives were lost and returned back to Allah swt. Some are strangers and some are friends. To Allah we belong, and to Him we shall return. Tonight, my close friend just texted me of another loss of a special little some one. How do I smile tonight?

I just had to post this set of pictures I took awhile back to remind myself to not be sad for too long and to smile again like I did on that beautiful day. We will surely be tested in many ways, and lost of lives are among one of those. We just need to have faith in the Qadr of Allah and trust Him, the one who loves us more than we can imagine.

If Allah can remove someone or something you never dreamed of losing, He can replace them with someone or something you never dreamt of having.

Photos by Kim L.

Tuesday, 25 March 2014


Certainly Allah swt is the Most Forgiving and the Most Merciful.

Friday, 21 March 2014

A Love Story

One of those stories you can hear over and over again, only to leave you falling that much more in love with our Prophet Muhammad (peace and blessing be upon him) and Khadija (may Allah swt be pleased with her). Best part is, this love story is real and not out of a Walt Disney movie.

Have a beautiful Friday everyone! :)

Thursday, 20 March 2014

It's A Girl!

A pink pram, Aztec stripes and little baby clothes on the line was what was sketched for us to make. This baby shower cake was made for someone dear to my mum and I. She is one of the sweetest person I know, and more than just a familiar face at Gateauxlicious. She first let us into her life when she needed her engagement cake, and then her cake for her big day, her many family and friend's celebrations, her birthday, and now her baby shower as she expects her first baby girl with excitement beyond words. I think it's quite beautiful to be able to see a person's life through their celebrations. I may have mentioned this before once or twice, but I really can't thank Allah swt enough for creating the path in my life that led me to this job (if I can even call it that) that has so much positivity surrounding it and brings smiles and joy to people even if it's for a few seconds.

May Allah swt grant her a safe delivery end of this month inshaAllah, protect her little princess from any harm and let her grow into a beautiful righteous daughter. :)

Not Just A Rule Book

The other day I had the sudden urge to turn on the hotel TV for some background noise (something a lot of us do no?) while getting ready. After a few minutes of not really paying attention to the program that was on, I finally realized I was listening to a group of people from Oxford University debating about a law mentioned in the Quran. What the issue was, wasn't important to me. What struck me was how they spoke of God's words as if they had a right to correct what seemed wrong to them, offering their better judgement to it and fell nothing short of criticizing it.

Just before I decided to switch to another channel, I zoned out and remembered once upon a time, I wasn't much of a fan of the Quran either. I may have never criticized Allah's words the way they did, but I made some silly assumptions of the Quran being a boring rule book for the religious ones only. I was never really interested and feared flipping through this Book would just make more apparent to me, all the wrong things I'm doing in my life. Why the negative assumptions? I don't know.

But by Allah's mercy (it must be), somehow, the Quran slowly crept its way into my life, little by little. I paid more attention to understanding what the verses mean rather than trying to read as much of the arabic as I can. And it has changed something in me I thought was pretty messed up. Now don't laugh, but for so many years, this big ego of mine made me think I was too cool to say I LOVE YOU to my parents and family. That's pretty messed up isn't it, not being able to say such simple words and mean it. But I can say it now. I can say 'I love you' to my mum and it feels so good! And I was never the type to apologize to someone, even if I was wrong, let alone give in when a situation calls for it. But alhamdulillah, this ego of mine got some whippin' love from the Quran, and has allowed me to still be me, but perhaps a better version of me by softening my heart and not making me so afraid to let my guard down.

  I don't look at is as a rule book anymore because rule books are boring and there's nothing boring about the Quran. Why didn't I trust Allah when He said He sent it down to us as a gift out of His love and mercy, and not to make our lives difficult or cause stress.

For some like me, heart as hard as a rock and an ego that won't budge, learning to say I love you to my family is something quite magical to me. If the Quran managed to sort this out, I'm excited to see what else it can do for me. God knows I need some good fixing here and there. Sometimes I feel like a kid who is just starting to learn how to live. And the Quran is slowly helping me be less of a crappy human being.

“Certainly, We have brought them a Book (the Quran) which We have explained in detail with knowledge, a guidance and a mercy to people who believe." (Al-A'raf: 52)

May Allah swt make us among those who develop love for the Quran, grow into a better person with it and find joy in spending time with it. :)